The Incomplete Me

'What if...?' This is what i would like to think of when I'm standing in the middle of a crossroad... All the endless possibilities that would change every path or journey that i might be heading.

I admit, not all the choices i made are the correct ones, and some really made me regretful, but even so... the contradiction in this situation is, if i would have another chance to choose again, i would still make the same decision. Because i understand, that its impossible for one to be 100% perfect, and its the imperfectness in me that makes myself unique. All the experience that i have learned from the past made me who i am now, be it making the better me or the worst me, I still have no regrets of the experience that I've gain throughout these years.

Naive, is the word i would describe myself, for believing that if you put in as much effort as you can to achieve something, then you would eventually get it... for believing that all people around you would be genuine treating you good and think for you... for believing that if you treat a person well, in return they too would appreciate and be kind to you too...
Well... Life ain't as ideal as it seems to be when people grow older... You tend to see things in a more realistic perspective and sadly in a more pessimistic way too. I want to believe that we could still have dreams, and awaits it to come true... but somehow, it just seems to be me being too optimistic...

I really have the passion that i would be thrilled to give out if i were given the chance to show it. But unfortunately, I just can't seemed to find the right opportunity. Or is it me being too choosy? :s well... I guess, that leads me to the incomplete me... which I'm still working my way to find the self fulfillment in my life... I know i can't be naive anymore, but still i do hope to be as optimistic as i could. Somehow i still believe that determination conquers all obstacles... and i really hope that I'm right...

We should live for the future and have our past to be our best guidelines to seek our way to self satisfaction and fulfillment.